Name: ~~zhuzhu~~ Birthday: 13th March Behaviour: Very Bad Likes:SlackIng Dislikes:Slacking

1)HopE that Dove & Truffle can live a healthy life!
2)Hope YeaR 2 will bE gOoD!
3)Hope Everyone happy!
4)HoPe i cAn faster sLim down =( 5)HOPE MY FAMILY MEMBERS ALL HEALTHY! =)

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After today security exam, i'm going to rush home to sleep for 2-3hour =)  About 3pm then i will wake up and continue study Finance Module! hahah! I haven even study a chapter of that! TSK! hahah! All the best my friend for todays exam =) JIA YOU JIA YOU! 

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Missing the old days 

While having breakfast to replenish energy for later exam, i suddenly miss the day~~ I remember last time after school, your come my house! hahah! CLimb the mountain complaining very tired. Hahaha! After that, your would play around in my house, and your will be hungry =) I remember i always cook spaghetti for your =) hahaha! Am i right??   

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Its hard to pretend to be happy when my heart is hurting. 
Its even hard to pretend that i don't care anymore where it would be the reverse.
Otokachi?!
Why are you doing this to me?

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HAAAHAA! I'm happy again! So fast right?! AHAHA! I want to faster finish this exam! HAHAHA! Than i want to go out again with Grace, You se, Jeremy, Aarone, Wei Da, Abel, Xiu ling, Shin Pei, Wan ning,  anelie.HAHA! Your are blacklisted
HAHAHAHA!! I also want to go out with my kaisu family =D


ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE HAVING EXAM TML =D LUCK LUCK***

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Dreams make me happier than reality 

I feel so stupid! Terribly stupid! But at the same time, i feel hatred! I don't know if what i heard was the truth or not. But if it is existing, i felt insulted, stupid and embarrassed. If it is really existing, i hate you! Hate you for your lies! I Hate you much!! I felt stupid stupid and even stupid! 


But if that was in the past, it will be a different story.


Yesterday woke up with a dream that hurts me alot by you, but i felt happy as at least in the dream, i felt alittle happiness that u gave. But why.... why?? People say dreams are the reverse of reality. But why, yesterday it happen and hurts the same way it does in my dream? It affected my mood. I'm happy awaiting yesterday meeting to meet up with all my lovers! But i can't enjoyed it because my mood was terrible. I felt sad. But its not caused by them. 


Why must i heard that coincidently? It heavily affected my mood... Felt like crying many time yesterday, but it was my son birthday celebration. How can i react that way...Spoit everyone mood. And now, i have no mood to study for tml exam. No mood... Yesterday meeting was a terrible one for me as i can't enjoy the time with them with me feeling so horrible about something else. I was feeling so excited to meet them, but, turns out, i was not in a good mood that i have never talk to them. I just practically answer their question in a sentence. I'm sorry guys! I felt guilty for not been able to talk to your because of my own problem. Before yesterday, i was hoping to meet up and chat happily with your. But, something just destroy my mood =( (not cause by any of your =))


I wanted to show your the true me. But its turn out the other way. Now, i just hope to forget my unhappiness and await for the next meeting to come. I love to meet up with them =) But i hate myself for not been able to engage well with them =( haahaa


How i wish i could die in my dreams. Forever no need to wake up to face this cruel world. I'm feeling so hurt

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AWAITING 
SAT 
MEETING!
 =) 

AWAITING 

SAT 

MEETING!

 =) 

AWAITING 

SAT 

MEETING!

 =) 

AWAITING 

SAT 

MEETING!

 =) 

AWAITING 

SAT 

MEETING!

 =) 

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I want to get closer to your =(

Suddenly, i feel like i really care alot. I keep thinking of them, keep awaiting the next meeting. I'm willing to pay any amount just to make them happy. I'm willing to do alot of things. Sometime i wonder, do they know i care about them as much even i never express it out? Do they actually care for me as much as i care?

I understand, one must not calculate how much you have given or contribute as all of this are coming deep down from your most sincere heart. But still, sometime i have this curiosity. Because i always feel that they are the ones that i must not, ever not, lose them. I do not express much, cause i dare not too. I'm afraid to revel my real self, i'm afraid to show how much i care, i'm afraid of everything. Maybe this is why there is a distance.

But i do really hope they would know they means much to me =) As much as asking me out in the middle of the night to keep them company. I'm willing to if they asked. But, it must not be for no reason or etc. HAHAA!

Sometime i do find it real hard to express myself. Those best friend that i have are the ones that i admire most! They are the ones that come close to me, let me know they won't despite me and will back me up =) 

I would like to be that kind of friends to them too, but i dare not. I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid they are not willing to revel themselves to me. =(

Many times in the night, i felt lonely, i feel like crying for no reason. It's always like that. No reason. haha!! Felt lonely, felt like chatting, but i will only disturb the ones that i know they are with me and will not find me a nuisance. HAHAA! 

Who is willing to let me disturb? haha! Who is willing to chat with me when i'm bored or down or unhappy? Who? Let me know =) 

GRACE, YOU SE, AARONE, JEREMY, WEI DA! Your are mine! Don't run away! Come nearer to me... I realize so much...so so much during this 3 years! I realize how much i care about your although i don't express out. I always quite quite when we are out, but actually, i wanted so much to talk, i wanted so much to blend in, i wanted so so so much to laugh with your, i wanted alot. I realize how much i want to get closer to your although i really don't know how. I don't know how to get over my fear for embarrassment, fear that i would say something offensive, etc. I realize your (include all my BF) are the best, but i don't know how to let me be the best for your. 

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I love grace: Grace always show me concern. There is a period, my dear wu gui sms in the night. Telling me she know i am unhappy. I was really shocked to receive her sms.. I felt so warm, i felt like crying. I'm emotional, little concern, i will be over the moon for weeks. Thanks you grace. That time, i really felt so touched as you did notice me =) You always do =) I know=) Since secondary school, apart for sec3 onward where there is quite a distance between us, you always look after me. Its kind of weird. Weird in the sense that, why i never got closer to you?? Maybe because we are in different class and there was once we got alittle misunderstand that make us drift further? Hahaha =( Anyway, i'm happy we are still together =)

I love you se: You se never scold me before, never make me angry before, never bully me before. haha!! We do not have much communication in the past until recent year it improve much =) 

I love aarone: To be frank, in secondary school times, when we are in different class, i don't really like aarone. haha! Cos those guys always say those vulgarities and those.....  and during that time, he keep make shin pei angry. haha!! But as time goes by, i realize, aarone is quite a good person. Deep impression of aarone good point is during wan ning birthday chalet at CDANS/Hometeam NS at bt batok. HAHAA!! Thats is when i change my view on him. Slowly slowly, i enjoyed his presence

 I love jeremy: Hmmmm, jeremy very fierce. But he is my son, so i must love him! WAHAHH! Joking. Jeremy although sometime bully me, but he is quite good too. But i don't like the way he talks and often provoke shin pei. But i can't hate him as he never really provoke me or say things that make me very very angry =) Most deep impression is also wan ning birthday chalet=) My son help me, try to don't sabo me lose the game, as losing must drink the mix drinks. When i lost, he helped me drink the. Aarone helped too at the first round. Subsequently, my son also help me to drink alot. Until he cannot drink already, than i own self drink. But, they pour water for me =) 

Is these little things that make me feel so pamper and blissful to have them. 

I love wei da: Hmmm, Wei da ah! Also because he is caring, so i like him too! 

I love shin pei: There is nothing much to say. Because if say, i don't know need how many page to finish. Overall, she stood up alot alot alot alot for me. She keep me company when i need it the most =)

I Love wan ning: Same same with pei.

I love abel: Abel often bluff me in the past.. haha! But he is caring too =) Would like to thanks him for listening to me when i'm real down. 

I love xiu: Hai, xiu xiu ah! Nothing much to say! HAHA! I like to disturb her and abel! HAHA

I love Milko: Milko very good! NOthing to say... She understand me well. She know what i'm thinking and can guess it before hand sometime! hahaha! She know what i don't like and know what i like. She know what/who i scare and make use of it to threaten me! HAHAH! But that is for fun. Alot fun with milko

I love Wissy: Almost everyday with wissy. So she is like more close to me than grace,you se, aarone, jeremy, abel, xiu. Wissy is forgiving towards me =) She forgive me for been angry. She keep me company. She shared jokes and problem with me. Love you wissy. "Priscilla, "Speck"." Love u

I love allan: Allan is very good. hahah =) He is caring, like to listen to small chat. cannot say much! Deep impression... Hmmmm, i just know allan very good. 

I love bao: Nice to eat =) =) Always make me happy =)

I Love MZ: Nice to eat too! Likes to disturb her =)

I hope one day, i can talk to your freely, without the need to find a topic to start; without even feeling shy talking to your; laugh out loud as i want; irritate your as i irritate shin pei, wissy, milko,mz,wan ning, xiu,abel .

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I hope you could make it =)

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Do you know?

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There she go~~

Today Jeslin left Singapore. She is off for some adventure and exchange program. This is the first time she is leaving home for 4 months to a foreign county which do not speak both English and Chinese. Parents are worried about her.

Suddenly think of the past. Last time, i used to dislike her the most among my 3 sister. As when we will all still children, she often bullied me. But as time pass, she changed quite alot except for her stubbornness is still there. hahaha!

Now, she is quite a good sister =) Except when watching TV, you can't disturb her! hahah! Actually, this part same with me too!HAAHA! If you disturb her when watching TV, she will be very angry and annoyed. hAhaa! Same goes to me =) But i'm not as bad as her =) WAHHAAH

Sent her off to the airport, had dinner, and farewell to her. She hug daddy and started crying, after daddy is mummy, than Da jie. At first da jie never want to cry, but once hugged by her, da jie cried too! Hahah! After that it was mine turn, i also want to cry already, so i use dove to change tears into laughter. When she want to hug me, i tell her: "Don't miss my dove. Because you never say bye bye to her. YOu say bye bye to truffle, snow, but never say to her" Everyone laughed, haha! So only little tears drop out, not many. haha! If many than it would be embarrassing as all her friends are there =) ahaha!

Soon, she hugged RC, hahah! Than pam escaped! hahah! Hope she will have a smooth and safe trip. She is so forgetful, forget this, forget that, everyone is worried for her. Tsk tsk tsk =)

Jeslin, bye bye! HAve a nice trip and enjoyed=)

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When studying this module, it reminds me of you. During that time, i can't seem to study and i'm close to giving up.

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Thanks for the question

HAHA! Thanks for asking =) Feel so good... Now we know how we think =) It is nice to have a heart to heart chat once in awhile. If in doubt, ask, say =) Thats good =) I will learn from you too =)

More pictures to share =)

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Shopping with Kaisu's Family

HAHAAA! Today we went Bugis Junction shopping =) No one got

any clothes, but we got something=} Happy memories, fun, laughter and

Neo Print! haha!! After such long time, finally get our neo print taken today=) Was fun! But the picture abit too small! Such a waste!

If everyday will be like today, how fun will it be? With only laughter and jokes, not unhappiness. At least for me, i didn't feel any unhappiness. Only

irritation!!! HAHA! Joking =)

Was really really fun although we didn't meet our objectives =) Fun with friends, lets our heart out and enjoy the fun =} After today, are we willing to let ourselves....(lost of words)

Really really enjoyed =} Another good memories in poly life =D

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Everything is too late. Miss the chance here, miss the chance there.

Nevermind, leave everything to fate.

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What do you realise?

I realise that i'm not an attentive person. Most of the time, i think simple and tends not to interpret things deep.

I realise i'm not a good listener. I do not know how to encourage or comfort people unless i have experience it before

I realise that i want to be a good friend in everyone eyes. But i'm not as i don't know how to be one.

I realise that sometime i mend to encourage people or joke. But it turns out in a bad way.

I realise that i often lie to cover embarrassment. And that make me feel stupid and stupid.

I realise that my happiness is someone sadness. I do not notice this point until...

I realise that i envy people and people envy me. Everyone tend to envy others.

I realise that i do not communicate with people. Unless they initiate the conversation. If not i remain quite.

I realise that i'm lazy.

I realise that people are complicated. Until i reach a new environment, i didn't know how complicated people can think into. The same thing/event/remark mean differently to people. How scary can that be?

I realise the group of friend that i loved, some actually.... I can't ever imagine, i had no idea the friends which i treat like treasures, actually gave awful remarks. Why didn't i realise i have such friend? They appear kind, they appear so good. They make me happy and felt "in-love" with them, but... This is so dis-heartening. But the question is, why am i still treating them like treasure?!

What do you realise?

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Dream after Dream

Yesterday i went into the second layer of my dream. I've been wondering will i ever enter the 3rd layer? HAAHAA. If i ever do, am i dead? haa!

Yesterday dream, while in my second layer, i'm actually aware that i'm in a dream. But the thing is, i'm not aware i'm in the second layer. HAA! So when i woke out from the second layer back to the first layer, i no longer know i'm still in the dream until i finally woke up =)

Hmmm, the second layer was a sweet dream. Too sweet that i hope to live in forever. The first layer was a nightmare! It was really scary that i'm happy to be awake. Wow! Look what the dream master gave me! A sweet dream follow by a nightmare! hahaha!

But i'm thankful for the sweet dream. It was really sweet =) It is something that i can't find in reality. But i do believe one day i will find it in the future. Hope not too long. =)

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