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Sunday, July 4, 2010

Yes, but ...

Many time in Priscilla life, she would like to spit out what she really feels about something, but she can't. And this are the time that she is with her friends. Because at home, she is like tiger, and would say things that she would never say in-front of her friends (except vulgarities!!!).

Sometime, i really don't like it. But i'm afraid of offending my friend as i think this friend of my is important, she treat me good, she care about me, she stood by me . But sometime i just can't control my emotion. I can't stop feeling angry and mad. Because certain thing does not occurred 1 or 2 time, not even 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 time. It many many many time!

I know, and i understand, this friend of my might not think that much as i understand her character well. Something must make clear to her so she would understand, or else, she would not notice. But, i just can't bring myself to make it clear as i'm afraid any hard feeling might arise. I don't like to raise a problem within friends, as i don't like to be a trouble maker and i don't like cold war within friends, but i can't stop feeling angry angry angry at some time or every-time.

Sometime i really feel frustrated and upset as she take things forgranted. Not saying she did it on purpose, but i really think and hope she do consider things for me by putting herself in my perspective or position. Something is a convenient to her. Did she notice it?? Initially, it is not a trouble to me, but as time passes, it became a trouble as she is always..... We are friends and best friends, but somethings should still not be taken forgranted about.

Many time i showed her that i'm angry, but after awhile, i felt sorry. As she have never show me any angriness. Thus, i end up always feeling guilty of been angry. But, i ask myself, is that right?? The problem still exist don't it?? I always dare not to say what i feel, living a coward life, making life difficult for myself. I'm tired of it. But so what?? I would still never tell her the problem or the reason that i'm angry. Somehow i feel she know why i'm angry, but why there is no action taken? Thats how i feel.

I really feel that this is the reason why i often get frustrated with her as compare to others. I do really really like this friend of my, i do enjoy her presence. But i do hope that she would understand me, try to do something about it. As this keep bothering me and affect my mood.

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